A Cup Of Coffee

Fighting with love is the most exhausting. It wears down totally.

But Yuvraj is fighting with cancer. He just got back home today. I wish him smooth recovery. And fast.

Coelho just updated his Facebook status to- problems should induce actions not depression, something like that. He says a lots of things. I wonder what these people are like, these mahatmas,  who look as if they got it all sorted out, like they know every piece of emotional shit there’s to know about. Has he been through what I am being through, has he been me?

But I agree with his current update. I even shared it on my timeline.A Cup Of Coffee.

 

A Cup Of Coffee

Its April, but its cold, for its raining outside. I usually love this romantic feel in the night, rain, and good music. But today I am tired and worn out. So I make myself a cup of coffee. I need to feel better.

Fighting with love is the most exhausting. It wears down totally.

But Yuvraj is fighting with cancer. He just got back home today. I wish him smooth recovery. And fast.

Coelho just updated his Facebook status to- problems should induce actions not depression, something like that. He says a lots of things. I wonder what these people are like, these mahatmas,  who look as if they got it all sorted out, like they know every piece of emotional shit there’s to know about. Has he been through what I am being through, has he been me?

But I agree with his current update. I even shared it on my timeline.

RHCP is singing on my stereo. This Scar tissue resonates with me so much right now. I even wrote a song out in, you know, misery. I thought I’d sing some day. But like many things I planned to do and never did, maybe this is just another one of them too.

My dad taught me to keep promises, to do what I said I’d do. Yes, I still owe someone some lecture notes I said I’d give. I still got to buy someone a lunch, I still got to mend someone’s something I carelessly broke. I still got some conversations to end, some sorrys to say and some bye byes.

And there are some promises, quite a few, I made to myself. I am a dreamer. But maybe, you can’t do it all. If you have many dreams, at some point you got to let go of some and hang onto some. Because how many things could I to one versus one?

I think I should start praying too. I’ve lost touch with Gods since I took my finals. Gods do good to my spirit.

I have always been bad at undoing the knots. I give up. I hate tangled up and twisted. Its suffocating. And there’s so much in head. I can’t think straight.

Maybe that’s what being an adult is just like. You can’t have a spotless mind. Or a clean conscience. There are stains and cracks and fractures, there always will be. Walking, with all those weights, and still walking light, maybe be that’s growing up.

I suddenly feel this summer. It stopped raining abruptly. These mosquitoes I try to keep out fruitlessly with some scents will breed all night and come out with more tomorrow. But that’s alright.

One big cup of coffee I sat down with to begin to write has depleted and now I can’t think of a proper ending to what I just wrote.

Okay here’s a list of titles of what I’ve been meaning to write since quite sometime now.

“ Mind – Your  own Business ” (Its not telling someone to back off, here I’d talk about minds)

“Cyber Patriots and Silent Revolution” (A poke to facebook and other social websites activism and telling that that’s at the very least, better than killing millions in name of revolution in Sudan, in Syria, in Libya, in Peru and everywhere, and what you achieve for such huge price? Almost nothing. It’d be about how the concept of revolution should change in this modern era and people, who know this should tell to other people, about right and wrong, justice and education and equality and development etc)

“I don’t have a title for this yet” (But I mean to write about Nepal and Bangladesh, drawing comparisons and how we can learn from each other experiences. Different places, we live in different times too, on economic and social point of view. More stuffs)

“One Nepal” (I breaks my heart to see how politicians have manipulated all of us into being pahade and madhesi and newars, limbus, magars, chettris, bahuns and think of us only as such single units. For me, Nepal is One. And I will write thinking of us all, together).

I feel better now, this is what writing does to me. And coffee.

Goodnight, tonight!

p.s- like the Rubik’s cube in the picture, I have sorted out things only partly.

Pursuit Of Happiness

 

Pursuit Of Happiness

Some sought it in Gold. People found it patriotism. Lovers say love’s got it all.  Apart from money, good  food, music, movies, love, sex that make us all happy more or less, there are stuffs more influential, though subconscious, that determine how we feel. Happy? Lets see.

7 Tips to Happiness in here_ Pursuit Of Happiness.

Pursuit Of Happiness

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Some sought it in Gold. People found it patriotism. Lovers say love’s got it all.  Apart from money, good  food, music, movies, love, sex that make us all happy more or less, there are stuffs more influential, though subconscious, that determine how we feel. Happy? Lets see.

I have come across helpful people in my life. Some even go to the extremities of self sacrifice for other people- their family, friends or oddly enough, strangers. There are firefighters who do more than just their job in risking their life to save someone else’s. And there are those regular people who by the chances of chance happen to be in such place and time of disaster, and they show the selfless heroism. Thats wonderful what they do. But then most people don’t.

Generally speaking, here are some tips to Happiness:

7. Friends

Friends make you happy, because they are always there and still there’s not much give and take. Unlike love, friendship doesn’t demand monopoly or sacrifice, friendship doesn’t strain over time or distance. Loneliness is sadness. Friends keep company. So, make friends, many friends, and some good friends. Friends come handy all the time.

6. Be Honest

   We all are built of conscience. So when our acts come into confrontation with the very making of us, we feel unhappy inside. It might be as simple as not telling lies or not cheating in a relationship, or something bigger, like  being honest and fair with yourself (let me clarify that one, do you remember telling yourself lies, making excuses for what other people do to you, or holding onto false hopes even when you know deep inside, know things  black and white?). Honesty feeds soul happiness.

5. Be Clever

Clever people are happy. And lucky. Happy go lucky are clever, not because they have some cosmic forces in their favor, but they know which ride to take and which to bounce. They get dates because they don’t ask out somebody out of their league. They pass tests for they had worked hard. They land on good jobs because they prepared well themselves through years in college. They only knock those doors they know they are welcome to.  You need to know where you fit, where you are appreciated, where you can work your true potential.

4. Let go

I can guarantee you there will be many things going on around, every single day, that will affect you personally and make you sad. You can be sad as long as you get stuck on that, you think about it over and over again in your head OR, become happy just by choosing to let it go. Be it unrequited love, broken promises, flat tires or downed expectations. Just let it go.

3.Try to become successful

Now how can one control that? You may wonder. But it is usually the product of your own preparation, and genuine efforts- success. By late twenties, you’d have decided your line of business, what you want to do in life (if you haven’t, decide please!) You can either terribly suck at it or you might try to become better every day. Try to marvel at little efforts you make, gratify yourself at the responsibilities you took well. Getting things done makes very happy.

2. Activity

Like a flowing river gets to see mountains and hills and plane lands, and meet people and boats and fishes of different places and pour into ocean someday while  a lake doesn’t, flow like a river. Do things. Read, play, sing, dance, travel, ( blog!), work out. Keep busy. Earth moves, Sun moves, this whole galaxy moves, why won’t you have some momentum of your own?

1. Be Yourself

This is most important. Forget everything I’ve said in last six tips. My whole thought on happiness- it might not even work for you. Because like fingerprints, everybody lives by their own values. Know thyself. Find out what makes you happy. Is it in self sacrifice and being a good human being? Or are you happy being selfish? If its only you, you care about, do that. Love yourself! Recognize your priorities, Famous, filthy rich, wicked, kind, generous- become all you want to be. Satisfy yourself. Don’t live life like that because somebody lives life like that!

We call it green and we call it blue. But I wonder if we see the same color.

p.s-

How to Study Effectively and Get Good Results?(Tips to Medical Students)

Having done fairly well in my medical graduation course, here are few tips for fellow students on how to manage themselves during the course, keep themselves motivated, and study. Some of things I did and things I wish I had done during my college days.How to Study Effectively and Get Good Results?(Tips to Medical Students).